Starting to Have Doubts

I am starting to have doubts that conceiving a second child will be any different than it was with conceiving Micah.  My cycle has changed to 26 days instead of 28 days.  I don't think the shorter cycle is anything to worry about, because I am 99% sure I am ovulating on day 12.  From what I have read that would put the length of both phases of my cycle where they need to be.  It also gives me more chances of conceiving each year.  I'm somewhat thankful, although disappointed, that we didn't conceive in March, because two of my friends just experienced miscarriages.  My heart is broken for them.

Hormones in Disarray?

I think my hormones are going berserk!  At this point, I'm not even sure when I am ovulating.  I had signs of ovulation three different times last month and already having a weird cycle this month.  I guess it makes sense they would be out of whack after 17 months of no cycle.  No clue when things will straighten out but I have decided to focus on getting back into better health rather than conceiving.  Maybe it will happen soon but I'm not going to get my hopes up.  I'm actually a little thankful that this cycle wasn't successful for us.  One of my very dear friends who found out she was pregnant after seven years of trying lost her baby.  I would feel so guilty if I had become pregnant so soon after starting to try given her situation.  :-(